September 28, 2012 - Last weekday of my leave

Today I dropped the kids off at school for the last time. It is a really hard day for me. I knew that this day was coming but I am still really upset about it. If we could afford one of us to stay home we would do that, but it's not possible.

I am also worried because the Baby isn't sleeping through the night, he sleep is very restless and it is taking a toll on me and the Husband. I worry that I won't be able to function well at work because I'll be so tired, or that I will sleep in and be late for work.

How will it be possible for me to get everything done in the day when I'll only be home for a few hours?  The kids have activities and they need help with their homework every night. Not to mention the attention that the Baby will want and need after spending the day at daycare away from us.  I love picking up the kids, it is my favourite time of the day.  I love it when they run out of the door and have so much to tell me, I am really going to miss that!

I have basically been crying most of this week.  I have been feeling horrible all week.  Everything is frustrating me and I feel like I am going to lose it, if it is possible to lose it more than I already have.  It has been emotional to say the least, the Baby is turning one, starting day care and still not sleeping.  The to top it off the kids have their birthday bash coming up and I need to figure out what to make by way of food and what to do for loot bags.  All I really want to do is crawl back into bed and sleep until January.