September 30, 2012 - Teary

Today was a sad day for everyone in the house.  The Girl cried and the Boy hugged me tighter tonight.  They knew this day was coming and we'd been talking about it daily over the last month, but they still hoped that it wouldn't happen and I would just decide to stay home and not work. 

On the way to my Mother-In-Law's house we stopped at Tim Horton's.  The Baby got to enjoy some yummy timbits, and as you can see from the photo he loves them!!

September 29, 2012 - Birthday Party

Tonight we had a party for the Baby.  His actual birthday is on Monday, but since I am back to work, the Husband is working and the kids have school, I decided to have the party a couple days early.  My parents came over after dinner and we sang happy birthday, watched the Baby eat cupcakes (and make a lovely mess), then we opened presents.  It was a very nice evening and the Baby seemed to like his presents.  Although the older kids wanted to play with his toys, and often took them away from him.  I know they are just trying to get attention, and the day was all about the Baby.  But they really need to learn to let him play with his toys on his own!  He also liked to play in the box that his toy came in.  He crawled inside the box all by himself.  The older kids were trying to put his present together, it was cute.  They tried but when the instructions say: adult assembly required, they really mean it!!

September 28, 2012 - Last weekday of my leave

Today I dropped the kids off at school for the last time. It is a really hard day for me. I knew that this day was coming but I am still really upset about it. If we could afford one of us to stay home we would do that, but it's not possible.

I am also worried because the Baby isn't sleeping through the night, he sleep is very restless and it is taking a toll on me and the Husband. I worry that I won't be able to function well at work because I'll be so tired, or that I will sleep in and be late for work.

How will it be possible for me to get everything done in the day when I'll only be home for a few hours?  The kids have activities and they need help with their homework every night. Not to mention the attention that the Baby will want and need after spending the day at daycare away from us.  I love picking up the kids, it is my favourite time of the day.  I love it when they run out of the door and have so much to tell me, I am really going to miss that!

I have basically been crying most of this week.  I have been feeling horrible all week.  Everything is frustrating me and I feel like I am going to lose it, if it is possible to lose it more than I already have.  It has been emotional to say the least, the Baby is turning one, starting day care and still not sleeping.  The to top it off the kids have their birthday bash coming up and I need to figure out what to make by way of food and what to do for loot bags.  All I really want to do is crawl back into bed and sleep until January.